Watch Me Disappear

Who you want people to be makes you blind to who they really are.

It’s been a year since Billie Flanagan—a beautiful, charismatic Berkeley mom with an enviable life—went on a solo hike and vanished from the trail. No body, only a hiking boot, was ever found. Her husband and teenage daughter have been coping with Billie’s death the best they can: Jonathan by drinking, Olive by growing remote.  

But then Olive starts having waking dreams—or are they hallucinations?—that her mother is still alive. Jonathan is worried about Olive's emotional stability, until he starts unearthing secrets from Billie’s past that bring into question everything he ever knew about his wife. Is it possible that Olive is right—that Billie isn’t dead after all? 

Together, Olive and Jonathan embark on a quest for the truth—about Billie, their family, and the stories we tell ourselves about the people we love.  

On Sale 6.20.17

“A riveting, seductive read about the secret, protected places within even the most intimate relationships. Brown has written a novel that provokes thought even as her story twists and turns. I loved it.” – Sara GruenNYT Bestselling Author of Water for Elephant

“Watch Me Disappear is at once a riveting page turner and a thoughtful meditation on what it means to know other people--and ourselves. Be careful, once you start Janelle Brown's expertly crafted and wonderfully mysterious novel, you won't be able to stop.” – Edan Lepucki, NYT Bestselling Author of California and Woman No. 17

“I devoured Watch Me Disappear in one sitting. In this poignant and captivating story of a missing woman and the family she left behind, Brown deftly peels away the layers of a loving marriage to reveal a haunting mystery and a devastating truth: that no matter how much you love someone, you can never truly know them.” – Laura McHugh, Author of The Weight of Blood